Monday, November 21, 2011

I don't like the woman

I didn't like the woman way back when.

I didn't like the woman through the years.

So I haven't seen the woman for the last few years.

Two months ago, I heard she was diagnosed with advanced brain cancer, was being treated with chemotherapy and radiation, and was not expected to live beyond 15 months.

I felt badly for her. But I did nothing about trying to contact her - she lives and works out of the country, and comes back frequently on weekends.

She was back all last week, staying at a friend's home. Said friend called me to come over for dinner with the woman.

I told myself to be nice, hold my tongue, smile and nod in sympathy and agreement.

She is still ever the loud-mouthed shameless self-promoter I disliked from way back when. All night, I listened to the woman tell me how great a person she is - as a helpful friend, a hot lover, a doting mother, a filial daughter, a long-suffering wife (twice), an understanding ex-wife (twice), a dedicated employee, a pious person etc etc etc.

I held my tongue, I smiled and nodded in sympathy. I was nice.


At the end of the evening, I felt sad.

For her - because I'd like to think there are many people who really and truly like her, but I have serious doubts about that.

For myself - because I am probably seeing her for the last time. And I still do not like the woman.

13 comments:

imp said...

advanced brain cancer? woah. am a little taken aback by the news. life hasn't dealt her a kind hand thus far.

sinlady said...

imp - it's a big blow. i am happy to say she is exactly like she always was, in spite of the harsh medical treatment she went through.

Anonymous said...

i think she has been putting up defences all her life till she cannot tell reality from make-believe. i know someone like that. nine out of ten times i try to like the person, it injures me more because i get spiked from all the self righteousness they carry about them. still, jesus never said the path is easy. convent background playing up. ;)
-tuti

sinlady said...

tuti - you are exactly right in your assessment of the woman !

sinlady said...

*sigh* - i cannot log into my blogger account for several days now. *help*!!

Anonymous said...

write to blogger, hope it helps.
-tuti

sinlady said...

tuti - i wrote to blooger help forum this morning. no word back yet. if you have a link for me to use, send it to me.

Anonymous said...

no contact email. all leads back to the forum, scarily.
-tuti

sinlady said...

tuti - thanks for your efforts *hugs*. i will just have to wait this out.

dancingbunny said...

Some poeple, they want to mask themselves from others.

It is like the face value kind of thing...no matter how bad they really felt, they didnt want others to know it. I dunno, egoistic?

But in a way, it is good that she is still the way she it, till her departure. If that makes her happy...we hope she really is.

sinlady said...

bunny - i agree. i am happy to see her talk with so much bravado. and hope she stays this way to the end.

Anonymous said...

wanna get a new blog?
blogspot people sometimes won't reply.
-tuti

sinlady said...

tuti - just did :)go pick up your email.